ugh

i have been dieting and working out everyday and it sucks bad. i am so sore and so hungry. i know i sound like a whiny baby but its hard. you know how new years resolutions go. everyone wants to lose weight or eat right or get into shape. well, i think i can only use, "i just had a baby." for so long. i know it will get easier and i cant wait.
i was thinking about taking the baby in the jogging stroller and walking up to get the kids from school but i have no idea how long that will take and i wouldn't want to be late picking them up. so maybe one day i will just walk it when i don't have to be anywhere and time myself.
Matt and i have been going on nightly walks with the baby and the dog. they're so nice. i find myself looking forward to it all day. its getting a little colder in the evenings and its dark since we're going around 7pm. but it is nice cause we can walk down every road in our neighborhood and everyone is already inside for the night and there are no cars on the road so we can walk right down the middle. it is good alone time for us.
last night Lola fell asleep during our walk. usually she stays awake but last night she was so sleepy. i have been putting her in her crib while she is still awake at night to and just using the mobile that i got for her. it is AWESOME. she just watches the spinning animals and the light show. and listens to the music and falls asleep every night with out crying or fussing at all (knock on wood*)
she is getting bigger, smarter and prettier by the day. every time i look at my kids and my husband i feel so lucky.

*Heaven's Very Special Child*

A meeting was held, quite far from earth
"It's time again for another birth"
Said the Angels to the Lord above,
"This special child will need much love"

Her progress may seem very slow,
Accomplishments she may not show
And she'll require extra care
From all the folks she meets down there.

She may not run or laugh or play
Her thoughts may seem quite far away
In many ways she won't adapt,
And she'll be known as handicapped.

So let's be careful where she's sent
We want her life to be content
Please, Lord, find the right parents who
Will do this special job for You.

They will not realize right away
The leading role they're asked to play
But with this child sent from above
Comes stronger faith and richer love.

And soon they'll know the privilege given
In caring for this gift from Heaven.
Their precious charge, so meek and mild
Is heaven's very special child.

By Edna Massimilla

.:Its a New Year:.

Its finally 2010. wow. it came so quickly. our holiday was good. the driving across 5 states kinda sucked balls, but we did it. its always strange staying in someone elses town and some one elses house. i never quite feel like I'm in the right place. the kids had a good time and I'm sure that Matt was happy to see his family. but i was homesick the minute we left. it didn't help that i got super sick and then the kids got sick too. sick during the holidays and on vacation is lame.
we also drove across NE to visit more of Matt's family and they had a huge amount of snow. i hate snow.



i hate the cold too, but that wasn't too bad. it was fun to see other states tho, as we drove thru them. mostly just to say that i had been there. i took a lot of pics of the scenery. i realized that most places are the most beautiful right when the sun comes up. i have never been a morning person, but it is so pretty. i guess i have been missing out.



the kids go back to school tomorrow and Matt has already left for the field. so i will be able to get everything the rest of the way unpacked, the tree taken down and back on a schedule. that will be nice. we got a jogging stroller from the schools in garden county. so i will be able to go jogging with Lola and get back into shape. it will also be something fun that Matt and i can do together.
Lola is doing great. she has her check up coming in a day or two and will be getting her shots- that's always so sad. her hair is long enough to put into a pony tail on top and put bows in it too. she is so big that we have to put her in 6-9 month clothes and she is only 4 months old. she is a long baby!



I'm starting to rethink my plans for next summer. i was thinking about driving to WA and visiting with fam for the summer but now I'm thinking that i might just stay home and enjoy a relaxing summer here. even tho Matt will be gone, which always sucks so bad. I'm not sure yet tho, so i guess we will see.