Valentine's Day

It's almost Valentine's Day! it will be Lola's first. i took some pics of her today being as cute as she is and in a cute little red and pink outfit. Matt has been gone for work this week, but will be home this weekend and we get a date night. he also got me a new washer and dryer. the dryer comes on valentine's day, so its my gift. i love it. its funny, I'm digging for laundry every day so i can use it. haha



the kids are out of school for the rest of the week and Monday too. i don't know if its because of V day or presidents day or what. i didn't even know until yesterday, cause they never give me the papers from the school if they aren't homework. so i guess that's good for me too cause i get to sleep in.
i got some awesome sleep last night. i put the kids in bed and then i went to bed and i didn't even realize it was only 9pm until i was turning out my light! amazing. i thought it was too good to be true but i guess not. i woke up at 5am and looked at the clock and i remember thinking, "holy crap! i still have 2 1/2 hours to sleep!"
the other day Matt and i payed off my car. i thought it would be a few more years. but since we got a big tax return we got completely out of debt. but when i called the bank and asked them to send me my title, they said they never got it in the first place. and the dealership that sold me my car went out of business. so i called the corporation and they told me that they didn't get any records and that i have to write a letter to the address of the dealership and when it gets forwarded to the owners they will hopefully know where all my info went. I'm sure there are a lot of other people that this happened to also. so I'm really hoping that it gets straightened out and i can get a freakin title!!

ugh

i have been dieting and working out everyday and it sucks bad. i am so sore and so hungry. i know i sound like a whiny baby but its hard. you know how new years resolutions go. everyone wants to lose weight or eat right or get into shape. well, i think i can only use, "i just had a baby." for so long. i know it will get easier and i cant wait.
i was thinking about taking the baby in the jogging stroller and walking up to get the kids from school but i have no idea how long that will take and i wouldn't want to be late picking them up. so maybe one day i will just walk it when i don't have to be anywhere and time myself.
Matt and i have been going on nightly walks with the baby and the dog. they're so nice. i find myself looking forward to it all day. its getting a little colder in the evenings and its dark since we're going around 7pm. but it is nice cause we can walk down every road in our neighborhood and everyone is already inside for the night and there are no cars on the road so we can walk right down the middle. it is good alone time for us.
last night Lola fell asleep during our walk. usually she stays awake but last night she was so sleepy. i have been putting her in her crib while she is still awake at night to and just using the mobile that i got for her. it is AWESOME. she just watches the spinning animals and the light show. and listens to the music and falls asleep every night with out crying or fussing at all (knock on wood*)
she is getting bigger, smarter and prettier by the day. every time i look at my kids and my husband i feel so lucky.

*Heaven's Very Special Child*

A meeting was held, quite far from earth
"It's time again for another birth"
Said the Angels to the Lord above,
"This special child will need much love"

Her progress may seem very slow,
Accomplishments she may not show
And she'll require extra care
From all the folks she meets down there.

She may not run or laugh or play
Her thoughts may seem quite far away
In many ways she won't adapt,
And she'll be known as handicapped.

So let's be careful where she's sent
We want her life to be content
Please, Lord, find the right parents who
Will do this special job for You.

They will not realize right away
The leading role they're asked to play
But with this child sent from above
Comes stronger faith and richer love.

And soon they'll know the privilege given
In caring for this gift from Heaven.
Their precious charge, so meek and mild
Is heaven's very special child.

By Edna Massimilla

.:Its a New Year:.

Its finally 2010. wow. it came so quickly. our holiday was good. the driving across 5 states kinda sucked balls, but we did it. its always strange staying in someone elses town and some one elses house. i never quite feel like I'm in the right place. the kids had a good time and I'm sure that Matt was happy to see his family. but i was homesick the minute we left. it didn't help that i got super sick and then the kids got sick too. sick during the holidays and on vacation is lame.
we also drove across NE to visit more of Matt's family and they had a huge amount of snow. i hate snow.



i hate the cold too, but that wasn't too bad. it was fun to see other states tho, as we drove thru them. mostly just to say that i had been there. i took a lot of pics of the scenery. i realized that most places are the most beautiful right when the sun comes up. i have never been a morning person, but it is so pretty. i guess i have been missing out.



the kids go back to school tomorrow and Matt has already left for the field. so i will be able to get everything the rest of the way unpacked, the tree taken down and back on a schedule. that will be nice. we got a jogging stroller from the schools in garden county. so i will be able to go jogging with Lola and get back into shape. it will also be something fun that Matt and i can do together.
Lola is doing great. she has her check up coming in a day or two and will be getting her shots- that's always so sad. her hair is long enough to put into a pony tail on top and put bows in it too. she is so big that we have to put her in 6-9 month clothes and she is only 4 months old. she is a long baby!



I'm starting to rethink my plans for next summer. i was thinking about driving to WA and visiting with fam for the summer but now I'm thinking that i might just stay home and enjoy a relaxing summer here. even tho Matt will be gone, which always sucks so bad. I'm not sure yet tho, so i guess we will see.

family time

My husband is home and i freakin' LOOOOOVE it! i just cant get enough. I'm so happy to have him here. we are getting ready for our holiday trip to Nebraska. it is going to take a few days to get there and I'm really not looking forward to it. i hate snow and i have a feeling i am going to be seeing alot of it. i don't know how the baby is going to like being in her car seat for that long either. i know the big kids will be fine cause they have the DVD player to watch movies. that always keeps them busy.
my mom is going to fly in on Xmas day to stay at our house and to take care of the dog. i have no idea what we are going to do about him for the first week tho. i told Matt that he needs to ask one of his friends or get some boot to do it.
we were going to come home earlier than planned cause the huskers are going to be playing in the winter bowl here in San Diego on DEC 30th, but the tickets are like $250 and up. that's just way too freakin expensive for us right now. oh well.
i don't know what our plans are for news years yet either. i think we will be on the verge of leaving to road trip home or on the road already. it would be nice to go out with my husband and have a good night away from the kids, but i don't mind spending it with my beautiful family.
after the new year i have to remember to make dentist appts for all of us. i think we are about due.
i took the kids to the mall to see Santa and they sat on his lap and told him what they wanted, not Lola tho- i know its her first Xmas, but she was sleeping and I'll take it when i can get it.



we put up our Xmas lights last night and they look really good, but Matt and i both agree that we need 5 more strings. that's one nice thing about having a big house- you can go all out and not look overdone.
Lola is doing well. she rolled over a few weeks ago, she plays with toys. everything goes in her mouth, she even sucks her thumb. she talks (baby babble) A LOT! she doesn't really cry EVER. she just mumbles and jabbers. she is so stinkin' cute! she is getting more hair too. its fun to make it all stick up. it is still strawberry blonde and looks like it might have some curl to it. her eyes have also gone to a really pretty bright blue.
Matt and i have been going to the gym together lately. i love spending that extra time with him. I'm looking forward to a great family vacation!

Keeping Busy

Im trying to keep my self busy these days til my hubby gets back. i had alot of fun in WA last week. i partied my ASS OFF at my dads 60th. and then i was hungover for a couple days. then i got a cold. i also got a tattoo. i got Lola's footprints around my wrists like the other kids'. it was nice and cold there and i loved it. i had to drive a PT cruiser which was lame, but oh well. the kids got to see everyone and i loved to visit with the family. the time went by so quickly but i was glad to get back home. the kids all did really well on the plane too. on the way home we all just zonked out and slept the whole way... so nice.



i wasnt going to decorate the house this year for xmas cause we arent going to be here but then i started thinking that maybe i should.... so i did. then i got carried away. i ended up cleaning the garage since i was out there anyways and then i made my way thru the house and cleaned the back yard, dog poop and all. after mowing and raking i decide to start on the dog. so he got his nails clipped and a both. he is such a good boy.
i lost my voice 2 days ago and i can only whisper. so the kids are getting away with alot since i cant yell at them. but tonight they had a food fight with their pizza at dinner tonight and then started pulling each others hair! WTF? haha they got busted and went to bed early.... like 7pm (oh well it was dark out already.) i got their school pics today. they look so good. damn i have some good lookin babies.
Lola had another visit from the developmentalist today. it went great. she is developing like a normal baby would. when i put her on her belly she scoots around and turns in a circle. she even rolled over front to back and bakc to front with a little help. it was awesome. she is smiling alot more too. its so cute when i go into her room when i hear her wake up and she is just babbling in her crib she smiles when she sees me, like she is so happy to see me. it melts my heart.
matt got word that he might be getting home a little sooner than we thought. which of course i freakin LOVE. i HATE when he is gone. i makes me nuts.

Its November already?!

wow time goes by so fast! we are already seeing Christmas stuff around. its nuts to think that the baby is almost 3 months old!


she still feels brand new. she is getting to be big girl tho. she can hold her head up for a long time by herself now and she is drinking 150-180 mls. that pretty much happened over night. i don't think I'm going to continue pumping- its too much work trying to keep up with her appetite. that will free up alot of my day to get other things done too.
today is Matt's USMC ball in temecula. I'm not going cause we didn't think that we would be able to find a sitter for Lola. and also i don't think i could be away from her for that long. so he is going to get all dressed up and look all handsome and I'm gonna miss out. lame.
then on the 15th he is leaving for Mojave viper. I'm really not looking forward to that. i hate when we are apart. he wont be home til mid December. at least that time will be broken up by my trip to Washington. I'm really excited about that. i cant wait to see my family and friends. i have missed them so much. a week with them is just what i need. i get to cook thanksgiving dinner too. and they all get to meet Lola. the kids are really excited too. they love to travel and they are missing everybody back home too. now i just have to figure out if we have any warm clothes and then ship them up there before hand so i don't have to drag 3 kids and luggage thru that airport. i was really stressing that. i guess sending it thru ups is cheaper than paying the luggage fee at the airport.
as soon as Matt gets home from Mojave viper we are going to be driving to Nebraska for the whole Christmas vacation. I'm not sure how that is going to work out. I'm scared to travel in the snow and we will have to stop every few hours to feed the baby. thank goodness my mom and Hans will be coming to stay at our house and they can take care of hunter for us while we are gone- that is one less thing to worry about. now we just nee to find someone to feed him for the first week that we are gone. maybe i will ask a girlfriend to come and house sit- we'll see.
i started working out again and Matt and i brought the elliptical in the house. i have to say that i hate working out and i am not motivated at all. but i have to do it- maybe it will get easier... maybe not. *sigh*